First exam today. Brain and behaviour; some parts are so interesting. Others are so biological and contain so much information about case studies...that it's like cubes of crap trying to ram through an obtuse grate with airtight gaps. Pardon me for the crude analogy, but a lot of it wasn't sinking in.
Probably at most, 20 questions were answered with a bit of confidence. The rest was a guessing game and a mental battle of instinct vs luck.
Working out harmonies is now officially fun. Not errattic notes that are in sync with the melody from time to time, but melodies that aren't so different from the original. It's a whole new world, this new instrument I have stumbled upon.
What lesson am I learning? That assumption is always a predecessor of anarchy if left unchecked and without thorough examination and preparation. This is the third block because I've been down before. But does it mean the past lessons have no meaning to them?
Rely on God's strength. Not yours.
I feel sick with disgust and realization. But, regardless of how beaten up I am, it's human nature not to accept defeat lightly. So, it's from square one again. Think carefully before you say what you "assume" is acceptable, or whatever you deem safe by your construct of standards. Just think, you might actually help for once.
Pick yourself up and go then. It's not in my nature to stay down, either. I'm feeling restless again. Next exams are 30th May, 4th June and 6th June. I'm useless to God if I'm stood still.
I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the one who gave it all
Uni. It'll either make or break you.
V
Labels: assumption, harmony, learning
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
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