Ever learning. Always failing. Forever weak. Yet eternally saved. From a price to pay. Which I could and can not afford. Learning to live life. Learning to love life. Growing into shoes larger than my own. Finding meaning in Your name. Love and peace.
And by "Christmas time" I am referring to the holidays.
How am I spending it?
Currently I'm doing jury duty...if you've registered to be legible for electoral rights, then you are entered into the government database for jury duty...so I can vote...but I don't...cause I don't follow the politics of the country, which is bad...and I am therefore available to be on a jury panel.
Jury duty...you ask, "what's that? What do you do?" Well...imagine all those law scenes in films. Ally Mcbeal? Remember that show? I'm one of the people who votes with other people whether someone is guilty or not, after all the evidence has been presented. Sixty other people have been selected to do it this week...I only have to do it this week, as Christmas and New Year's Day is right around the corner.
If your name is read out whilst in the waiting room, you are one of the fifteen people to be available for being selected on the jury panel, which consists of twelve people...so that means that three people still might not do anything and will just get sent back.
I was sent back, haha...It's very nerve-wracking though. You swear an oath...and you are possibly condemning someone to a harsh sentence; deservedly or not is your own opinion.
Either way, I'm spending my first week of holiday alone. My housemates went back to Kenya and Ghana. I'm home alone for now...and praise the Lord. I need this time to reflect. To bask in His presence and just relax...Christmas cards need doing, as well as the monotonous duty of...wrapping =.="
But praise the Lord for my housemates. I don't feel as lonely. I see God's goodness through their company and playfulness, just lightening up the air and warming up the atmosphere, even if a fraction of a degree. The bite of cold is diluted when you're with people. When you have hope.
I found an awesome quote that really blesses me when I read it...
"The Christian faith is not true because it works; it works because it is true...It is not simply 'true for us'; it is true for any who seek in order to find, because truth is true even if nobody believes it and falsehood is false even if everybody believes it" - Os Guinness.
How do I solidify my feelings? How do I personify my attitude and ambition at the moment? A thought comes to mind...fire. And after a moments thought, with fingers on the line, crouched and poised to explode with thought and expression...I came out with this.
Fire; rampage and rustle, weave and transpose, stay and be, blaze fierce or flicker mildly, stay and be.
After reading my nonsense, I realised what I feel like. No matter how big or small my passion for Him may be, I will love Him all the same, because He loves me all the time too.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
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