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Name: Vinnie Wong
Location: Manchester, GB

Ever learning. Always failing. Forever weak. Yet eternally saved. From a price to pay. Which I could and can not afford. Learning to live life. Learning to love life. Growing into shoes larger than my own. Finding meaning in Your name. Love and peace.

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Monster »

I thought church was a safe haven.

I thought that being a Christian solved all my problems.

I thought a lot of stuff, but it looks like I have a lifetime to learn.

I don't know if I keep twisting this to suit my situation, but the lyrics, or train of thought that "death will be the end of all my labour" seems quite appropriate at the moment.

I seem to have developed a hate-the-world complex. That the world is pushing me more and more at my limits. I realise now, that in order to find out how I click and how I function, I have to sacrifice everything I am.

I'm drifting in and out of hopelessness, where I keep trying to find something to look forward to, only to find there's something else I need to attend to.

I feel like this is eating me inside out...I can't let go of what I've initially held onto, because no-one else can do it. Not that I'm superman by any means. But I miss my family so much...

The biggest fear? Losing 6 months of my life and running away from church. But I can never run from God.

When death becomes
The end of all my labors
And Christ alone my rest and reward

May all I've done
Be one enduring echo
Resounding on to shout
Great is the Lord

- Band: Starfield
- Album: Beauty in the Broken
- Song: Great is the Lord

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