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Monday, June 25, 2007

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What is loss?

My favorite dictionary site says it is:

1. The act or an instance of losing

I think most people's initial associations are "irreplacable", "unfortunate"...I think the circumstances that spring to mind usually consist of when someone has physically lost something...very valuable. I guess with further thought, it also refers to when you lose something internally, emotionally and things that can't be seen and felt.

But what about gain? Surely, where someone has lost something, even if it's something you can't see and is *really* irreplaceable...what then?

To gain...is to acquire.

Yet when you lose something, you don't suddenly gain experience, wisdom, comfort or anything immediately. The only thing "gained" is a further depth of doubt and pain...self torment and unhealthy mental inspiration.

The first thing I wanted from my loss was what I didn't cherish.

And what have I gained, from all my loss?

I grounded my aims and future in someone who knows best. My mind opened to the world and what I needed to do became stark clear, blaring out every morning when I woke, every day when I walked the streets, in company and in isolation.

I found my life.

Miss you mum.

V

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