V - the story of: Reflection
Tuesday, June 12, 2007

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And so it's done.

A whole year. From September till now. That's it. I'm now a more experienced university student and I know how it all works; making friends, maintaining those friendships, attendance for lectures and tutorials, amount of dedication for work, extracurricular activities. On top of all that, I was increasingly involved in church; mainly the worship side of things. Also, I've slowly been building myself up to become a youth group leader. Come September, I shall hold the title. But that's all it is. One thing I have deduced from the label of YG leader is that they all have a passion for the youth and helping them come to know the Lord; the label doesn't reflect any of the individual's knowledge, experience, or walk with God, though. It does reflect determination and the will to be better.

My friend has gone back to Brunei. It's a real pity that he's gone. Only started to get to know him over the past half year. The other half, I was struggling and swiping in mid air for comfort and joy. In retrospect, I'm not sure how else we would have/could have spent the time together. I think...that I don't regret anything we did in the past. Everything done, was to strengthen the friendship, consciously or unwittingly. He's gone now. It's time to move on, I guess. I'm *so* not used to this whole idea of people coming and going in life. Emotional attachment sucks.

A whole year...It was only yesterday I felt that pain smolder; the itch beyond cure. It was only yesterday I was still questioning and wondering where I was, why I was and what to do. It was only yesterday I was 18 and was slightly drunk. It's flown by. What have I learnt?

Not enough.

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